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T O P I C R E V I E WSoulflower_13There are times when I have a hard time realizing myself. I mean conceptualizing who I am and my surroundings. I get these moments where I cant comprehend that this is my life or that these are the people or things that surround me. It's not really conscious or depressing most of the time, its just odd. I sort of stand there trying to ground myself. I know what everything/who everyone is, I just feel baffled by it. It's otherworldly. Have any of you ever experienced this? I wish I could explain it better, but its really difficult to describe because its not really an emotion. Here's my chart for anyone interestedPlanetary positionsplanet sign degree motionSun Aquarius 2°19'22 in house 10 directMoon Gemini 23°34'30 in house 3 directMercury Capricorn 26°06'23 in house 10 directVenus Aquarius 3°02'10 in house 10 directMars Scorpio 23°40'43 in house 7 directJupiter Aquarius 23°05'52 in house 11 directSaturn Sagittarius 7°13'00 in house 8 directUranus Sagittarius 20°40'25 end of house 8 directNeptune Capricorn 4°22'25 in house 9 directPluto Scorpio 7°16'23 in house 7 directTrue Node Taurus 5°06'37 in house 1 retrogradePlanets at the end of a house are interpreted in the next house.House positions (Placidus)Ascendant Aries 24°50'522nd House Taurus 29°15'163rd House Gemini 22°28'20Imum Coeli Cancer 12°59'515th House Leo 5°42'236th House Virgo 6°51'23Descendant Libra 24°50'528th House Scorpio 29°15'169th House Sagittarius 22°28'20Medium Coeli Capricorn 12°59'5111th House Aquarius 5°42'2312th House Pisces 6°51'23Major aspectsSun Conjunction Mercury 6°13Sun Conjunction Venus 0°43Sun Sextile Saturn 4°54Sun Square Pluto 4°57Sun Square Ascendant 7°28Moon Quincunx Mercury 2°32Moon Quincunx Mars 0°06Moon Trine Jupiter 0°29Moon Opposition Uranus 2°54Moon Sextile Ascendant 1°16Mercury Sextile Mars 2°26Mercury Square Ascendant 1°16Venus Sextile Saturn 4°11Venus Square Pluto 4°14Mars Square Jupiter 0°35Mars Quincunx Ascendant 1°10Jupiter Sextile Uranus 2°25Jupiter Sextile Ascendant 1°45Uranus Trine Ascendant 4°10Neptune Sextile Pluto 2°54<3 soulflowerSexyScorp103i have this feeling all of the time! i mean, several times a day.. sometimes it lasts the whole day. I think it may be due to a very heavily aspected Neptune. (illusion, almost like discrepancies within your 'reality') augentierHmm..I think I know what you're talking about. Like do you feel detached from yourself..almost like you are separate from your physical being, and you are observing from the outside? I feel like that a lot..is that what you're talking about?------------------Capricorn sun / Scorpio rising / Sagittarius moonMercury:: SagittariusVenus::ScorpioMars::PiscesSoulflower_13SexyScorp- thats amazing! I cant imagine it lasting an entire day. Does it hinder your ability to function?augentier- that is exactly what I mean! when i was in high school a therapist called it "depersonalization" or disassociation. I didn't really buy into it though. I remember sitting in class and feeling like I was walking away from myself. LoveYeah, I've been there before myself. I tend to think it must have something to do with Neptune as well. It's almost like "what the hell am I doing here?"Also, somewhat similarly, I remember walking the dog one day with my boyfriend who I'd been with for 6 years at that point. We were standing on the corner, about to cross the street, and suddenly, I felt like I didn't know him at all. It was as if he was suddenly and completely foreign to me or like we'd just met at that moment and I knew nothing about him.I have odd moments like that sometimes that will last for hours and sometimes they're only there for a moment. But yeah, it's a weird feeling for sure.janeOften! I'm not sure if I experience quite the same thing though. It's not just a feeling of being separate from my physical being, but my everything--my personality, my history, my thoughts. And I'll see other people like that, too, like we're all just energy thrown into these finite circumstances. Circumstances that play out according to some rules predetermined by genetics and cause & effect, and the only thing outside of that is that separate essence we all have. Sometimes in the first moments of waking, I'll have that feeling. I'll feel personality-less. My sense of self comes back in a rush, but the experience saddens me b/c I like being who I am, and knowing the people who I love, and the experience reminds me how all of that is impermanent and I mourn that. It does encourage me to make the most of this life and its experiences while I'm here, though. I have Neptune trine my Moon and Neptune both conjunct & parallel my Sun.Edit: I could really relate to this: quote:I know what everything/who everyone is, I just feel baffled by it.tboneI felt this way alot when i was a young child. I remember day dreaming and not really knowing if I was awake or sleeping. I couldnt distinguish reality /from fantasy alot of the time. Even if i was awake i felt like i was in a dream/ or watching a movie of my life. PS: i have Moon in PIScesjaneLove - quote:and suddenly, I felt like I didn't know him at all. It was as if he was suddenly and completely foreign to me or like we'd just met at that moment and I knew nothing about him.I've felt that before too, also with people I've known a long time. When that happens, I think it's b/c I'm more in "essence" mode, that that part of myself is dominant in that moment. And it feels like the other person is a stranger b/c that other person and I have been interacting and becoming acquainted with one another as personalities, not spiritual beings. It feels like I'm perceiving that moment from a spiritual, eternal perspective. The present moment feels like a memory of someone who I used to be and someone who I used to know.(Pardon my cheesy language, but I haven't yet figured out a precise & sophisticated way to discuss this. **sips martini...um, yoohoo, actually**. )BekaI sometimes have this:when I'm somewhere/converstions or whatever...I get this feeling of; wtf, this doesn't make any sense, why are they talking. And at that moment I start to hear the people differently, as if I were observring the conversation from above me. And then when I start to think about all the things I just said at that moment, I get this strange vibe as if this is all an illusion(which I know ofcourse:P)It's like all my sense of reality has gone....heart cakesyes, um, all the time. seriously.well, i also don't feel out of my body, but it is more like.. i am so aware of the energy dynamics going on that they completely overwhelm me a lot of the time. apparently my top three chakras are wide open, and the bottom two are pretty closed, so i am opposite of most people. i am also a pisces SN and living on my neptune line and seriously my being psychic here is waaaay beyond anything i've experienced before.. it happens so often that now i just ride with it. i realize i'm just picking up on other peoples' stuff ALL the time and i've recently started feeling a sense of liberation about it. a healthy detachedness that allows me to have compassion and bring a good vibe without getting tangled up. but neptune can be tricky and if you are not paying attention and staying detached you can take things personally when they really are not. it is a really weird thing, but yes, it happens all the time.i'm an aquarius too and i think that is a big part of it as well. we have a certain awareness that sort of floats above the general emotional dynamics that account for most peoples' lives. i don't mean "above" as in better than; i see it more visually, like we're floating along the ceiling looking down on things..Soulflower_13I think it definitely has to do with our intuitive natures. I understand what you all are saying about tapping into those around you. I've been freakily telepathic lately. Also, I found this post http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum3/HTML/002020.html About how to "ground" yourself. and it was posted on my birthday, how perfect.
It's otherworldly. Have any of you ever experienced this? I wish I could explain it better, but its really difficult to describe because its not really an emotion.
Here's my chart for anyone interested
Planetary positionsplanet sign degree motionSun Aquarius 2°19'22 in house 10 directMoon Gemini 23°34'30 in house 3 directMercury Capricorn 26°06'23 in house 10 directVenus Aquarius 3°02'10 in house 10 directMars Scorpio 23°40'43 in house 7 directJupiter Aquarius 23°05'52 in house 11 directSaturn Sagittarius 7°13'00 in house 8 directUranus Sagittarius 20°40'25 end of house 8 directNeptune Capricorn 4°22'25 in house 9 directPluto Scorpio 7°16'23 in house 7 directTrue Node Taurus 5°06'37 in house 1 retrogradePlanets at the end of a house are interpreted in the next house.
House positions (Placidus)Ascendant Aries 24°50'522nd House Taurus 29°15'163rd House Gemini 22°28'20Imum Coeli Cancer 12°59'515th House Leo 5°42'236th House Virgo 6°51'23Descendant Libra 24°50'528th House Scorpio 29°15'169th House Sagittarius 22°28'20Medium Coeli Capricorn 12°59'5111th House Aquarius 5°42'2312th House Pisces 6°51'23
Major aspectsSun Conjunction Mercury 6°13Sun Conjunction Venus 0°43Sun Sextile Saturn 4°54Sun Square Pluto 4°57Sun Square Ascendant 7°28Moon Quincunx Mercury 2°32Moon Quincunx Mars 0°06Moon Trine Jupiter 0°29Moon Opposition Uranus 2°54Moon Sextile Ascendant 1°16Mercury Sextile Mars 2°26Mercury Square Ascendant 1°16Venus Sextile Saturn 4°11Venus Square Pluto 4°14Mars Square Jupiter 0°35Mars Quincunx Ascendant 1°10Jupiter Sextile Uranus 2°25Jupiter Sextile Ascendant 1°45Uranus Trine Ascendant 4°10Neptune Sextile Pluto 2°54
<3 soulflower
------------------Capricorn sun / Scorpio rising / Sagittarius moon
Mercury:: SagittariusVenus::ScorpioMars::Pisces
augentier- that is exactly what I mean! when i was in high school a therapist called it "depersonalization" or disassociation. I didn't really buy into it though. I remember sitting in class and feeling like I was walking away from myself.
Also, somewhat similarly, I remember walking the dog one day with my boyfriend who I'd been with for 6 years at that point. We were standing on the corner, about to cross the street, and suddenly, I felt like I didn't know him at all. It was as if he was suddenly and completely foreign to me or like we'd just met at that moment and I knew nothing about him.
I have odd moments like that sometimes that will last for hours and sometimes they're only there for a moment. But yeah, it's a weird feeling for sure.
Sometimes in the first moments of waking, I'll have that feeling. I'll feel personality-less. My sense of self comes back in a rush, but the experience saddens me b/c I like being who I am, and knowing the people who I love, and the experience reminds me how all of that is impermanent and I mourn that. It does encourage me to make the most of this life and its experiences while I'm here, though.
I have Neptune trine my Moon and Neptune both conjunct & parallel my Sun.
Edit: I could really relate to this:
quote:I know what everything/who everyone is, I just feel baffled by it.
quote:and suddenly, I felt like I didn't know him at all. It was as if he was suddenly and completely foreign to me or like we'd just met at that moment and I knew nothing about him.
I've felt that before too, also with people I've known a long time. When that happens, I think it's b/c I'm more in "essence" mode, that that part of myself is dominant in that moment. And it feels like the other person is a stranger b/c that other person and I have been interacting and becoming acquainted with one another as personalities, not spiritual beings.
It feels like I'm perceiving that moment from a spiritual, eternal perspective. The present moment feels like a memory of someone who I used to be and someone who I used to know.
(Pardon my cheesy language, but I haven't yet figured out a precise & sophisticated way to discuss this. **sips martini...um, yoohoo, actually**. )
It's like all my sense of reality has gone....
well, i also don't feel out of my body, but it is more like.. i am so aware of the energy dynamics going on that they completely overwhelm me a lot of the time. apparently my top three chakras are wide open, and the bottom two are pretty closed, so i am opposite of most people. i am also a pisces SN and living on my neptune line and seriously my being psychic here is waaaay beyond anything i've experienced before.. it happens so often that now i just ride with it. i realize i'm just picking up on other peoples' stuff ALL the time and i've recently started feeling a sense of liberation about it. a healthy detachedness that allows me to have compassion and bring a good vibe without getting tangled up. but neptune can be tricky and if you are not paying attention and staying detached you can take things personally when they really are not. it is a really weird thing, but yes, it happens all the time.
i'm an aquarius too and i think that is a big part of it as well. we have a certain awareness that sort of floats above the general emotional dynamics that account for most peoples' lives. i don't mean "above" as in better than; i see it more visually, like we're floating along the ceiling looking down on things..
About how to "ground" yourself. and it was posted on my birthday, how perfect.
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